wow. am I tired or what. I have not had a decent nights sleep since monday -- the day before I was instructed to change my sleeping ways.
I am a HUGE back sleeper. big fan. but sadly, no more. at week 16 you are no longer allowed to sleep on your back because this position puts added pressure on the aorta and vena cava. you risk cutting off blood flow to the baby. what a scary thought.
so now each and every night I struggle (literally) to get comfy on my side. not happening. I have tried the strategic propping of assorted pillows. not working. my shoulders get sore and my arms fall asleep. I inevitably end up on my back and officer teeth grinder next to me makes sure I roll onto my side. I toss and turn until I have to get up and pee. then I toss and turn more until the next pee.
this is unfortunate because lately sleeping is my MOST favorite activity. love it and cannot get enough of it. what used to bring me so much joy now results in anxiety and... unrest. I have searched high and low for a clever solution for my issue. sure, there are a number of awkwardly designed pregnancy pillows out there -- boopies, snoggles... "english please!" many of these are human-sized, stuffed monstrosities that require their own bed. I really don't feel like adding another body to our already overcrowded sleeping ensemble (thanks lulu.) one obscene design actually requires wrestling moves in order to use it. physical battle with a pillow does not promote restful sleep.
it's hard enough not drinking coffee in the morning or enjoying a nice glass of sauvignon blanc with dinner. I am constantly tempted by an everpresent starbucks. now back sleeping is one of those forbidden pregnancy things. who would have thought? this morning I indulged for about 10 minutes. it was glorious! flat on my back while b took his shower. I felt comfortable for the first time in hours. comfortable... but guilty. like I had just polished off a hefty frozen margherita with salt.