one word

fuck!

cute dr k is getting uglier by the moment. not only is it impossible to get in touch with him, when we do speak he only delivers bad news. why do I go to great lengths to track him down? b recently had all his tests done and the results are in. (((drum roll)))... "severe." this is the word dr k used when talking about his SA (sperm analysis.) low count. impaired motility. he would like b to see a urologist to rule out any underlying issues. so. now we are both defective. broken. our odds of conceiving unnaturally continue to decline. I no longer carry the burden of responsibilty in this horrific nightmare. we are a match made in heaven.