of course the moment NaComLeavMo begins I start by writing the most depressing and unhappy post imaginable. go figure.
well today is a new day. I'm feeling ever so slightly better and that's only because I am distracted and swamped with work. a good project (2 actually) means $$ which means some time off when little one arrives -- 3 months TODAY! it's hard to imagine that on 28 august I could literally be meeting our miracle baby for the very first time. it would be so amazing if m is around to see his new grandchild. and hopefully I will be over my disappointment and frustration with b by then. hopefully.
my role as an IF poster child/IF poster couple has been transfered to one of "WTEWYE" spokesperson. I'm accumulating and enjoying every classic less than desirable pg symptom in the book. aside from the blazing sciatica, bloody nose, swollen (and unrecognizable) ankles, constant peeing, crazy fatigue, difficulty sleeping etc, etc, I am now experiencing the joy of late night leg cramps. in other words, pain that wakes you unexpectedly and makes you want to scream your head off and vomit. "here comes tubby! not just slow and gimpy with back pain, but now with a serious limp." I had a meeting in nyc yesterday and it took me twice as long to get to my client. a sluggish, out of breath, lopsided waddle down 5th avenue -- not pretty. it was hot and humid. a sluggish, out of breath, lopsided waddle WHILE sweating with crazed hair -- even more not pretty.
so what's next? hemorrhoids? gestational diabetes? varicose veins? skin tags? (ewwww) loss of bladder control? we can only hope.
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our 7 lb 4 oz miracle born 27aug08
1998 - 1 nov 2007
an open and honest struggle with infertility (x2) and IVF (x4) with ICSI plus random thoughts on dogs, cancer, ppd, cloth diapers, plagiocephaly, having a bi-racial child, being an older mom, life back in fab new york city, and learning how to be positive.
virginia
our 7 lb 4 oz miracle born 27aug08
our BFP
lulu
chilli
1998 - 1 nov 2007
in a nutshell
we are infertility poster children.
my dx - AMA with high FSH, DOR and no fallopian tubes.
poor responder to stims.
b's dx - low count and low motility.
very challenged swimmers.
tubal surgery and 4 attempts at IVF
all in 1 year.
my dx - AMA with high FSH, DOR and no fallopian tubes.
poor responder to stims.
b's dx - low count and low motility.
very challenged swimmers.
tubal surgery and 4 attempts at IVF
all in 1 year.
A loved one is not gone
until they are forgotten.
And to live in the hearts
of those left behind
is to live forever.
until they are forgotten.
And to live in the hearts
of those left behind
is to live forever.
Ring the bells that still can ring
Forget your perfect offering
There is a crack in everything
That's how the light gets in.
- Leonard Cohen
Forget your perfect offering
There is a crack in everything
That's how the light gets in.
- Leonard Cohen
"the problem with infertility is
that I am mourning children
that do not exist
and I'm the only one
who misses them."
that I am mourning children
that do not exist
and I'm the only one
who misses them."
my peeps
expecting lil' peeps
with lil' peeps in tow
IVF history
IVF #1 - cancelled at ER - too few follies
IVF #2 - 2 embies transfered. bfn
IVF #3 - cancelled at ER - too few follies
IVF #4 - 3 embies transfered. BFP! 21 dec 07
IVF #2 - 2 embies transfered. bfn
IVF #3 - cancelled at ER - too few follies
IVF #4 - 3 embies transfered. BFP! 21 dec 07
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20 comments:
I vote nothing else for you! Good luck on your 2 new projects!
I definitely hope that your symptom acquiring has stopped!! I think you've had more than enough of your share!
Good luck with your 2 new projects! I definitely hope that they can allow you to take some serious time off after the baby arrives!
(Here from NCLM)
Hey girl - I haven't checked in for a while and haven't seen you on SAIF. You've had so much going on, but I'm glad to see you're posting. Take care of yourself...even though it seems nearly impossible right now. Aside from your list in today's post, you look great in your Maine photo. Again, take care - we're all here for you.
I am so sorry that this is so hard for you. I think that you have reached your quota for symptoms.
Yuck, I am sorry that you are getting all those terrible symptoms. That seems totally unfair.
I vote for no more symptoms as well..and congratulations on meeting the baby in THREE months!!
NCLM
Since we are voting...I vote for none of the above as well! Sorry you got so much going on.
Good luck with your new projects.
As far as your previous post, I am so sorry he isn't supporting you like you need. Sometimes we have to smack 'em in the head to get it!
After having gone through IF, are the symptoms... made any less miserable because of that?
I know have said "I would love me some morning sickness" but I know I will hate it when (if) it does rear its ugly head.
I'm sorry to hear about your stepdad. I can't even imagine.
Hopefully you'll be done with symptoms by now!. (although the Hemo's, they are hard to keep away, esp. if you have a vag. birth)
Here through NCLM. Good luck!
I'm so sorry you're having such a tough time right now. I hope August comes quickly and you're surrounded b the people you love when you most need them.
Over from NCLM to say hi and congrats on your pregnancy. I hope any unpleasant symptoms stop super soon!
(Here from NCLM).
I vote mine is the most depressing post. You sound like a normal pregnant woman to me. :)
Good Luck on your 2 new projects!
Visiting from NCLM!
How exciting! 3 months to go! It's right around the corner and you won't even remember all the bad stuff once you have the miracle child in your arms...from what my mother said, it all magically disappears from your memory!
The good news is we're soooo close! I can't even believe it's pretty much June and our babies will be here two months after that..
Sounds like you have had more than enough of the crappy pregnancy side-effects! Let's hope for a smooth ride for the next 3 months!
At least you have all these symptoms because of pregnancy. It would suck if you didn't have that to look forward too...I already have a frequent urination problem, I can only imagine what it will be like if I ever get pregnant...
(Here from NCLM)
So here I am....from NaComLeavMo: More Conversation Than You Can Shake a Stick at even tho I am not on the master list!! (I was late!)
I can see that you are in the midst of Pregnancy FUN....but thankfully it will all be in the past when you hold your little one....Congrats!! (you can read my blog about GD if you want!)
Hugs
Sharon
http://infertilityanswers.typepad.com/surrogacy_101/
Ugh, I'm sorry you are experiencing every symptom imagineable. Good luck on your projects!
I'm with everyone else. I vote no more nasty symptoms! (maybe even lose one or two?)
I'm sorry for the deep sadness in your life and hope that the new projects keep you good and occupied! And hooray for time off aquired!
NCLM
Here from NaComLeavMo.
Sorry about your symptoms! I think those of us who deal with infertility should automatically have totally uneventful and healthy pregnancies.
But no one asked me, unfortunately. :P
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